I am so lucky and grateful to begin this New Year with a little extra break from my day job. I am happy to have a moment to reflect, catch up on all the little things that have taken a back seat and start the year off refreshed. I am also excited to have a little extra time to focus my attention here, on my business and it's future. As I always do, I have probably gone overboard on goals and resolutions this year, but what I want to share here is my mantra for the year, "let go."
I would like to let go in every single aspect of my life, starting with time. I would like to let go of my negative relationship with time. We all have 24 hours, and what doesn't get done today, will have to get done tomorrow. I want to appreciate time, and not take it for granted. I want to see idle time as resting, a positive and not a negative, I need to be doing something.
I want to let go of petty arguments, negative feelings and judgements I have about family, friends, strangers, my husband, co-workers, etc. I want to make it my goal to love people the way I love my son, I love him when he's snuggling me the same way I love him when he's throwing a tantrum.
I want to let go of my fear of change. Change is the catalyst for great things.
I also want to let go of holding myself to an unrealistic standard. Being a mom is hard enough. How about being a mom with full-time job, an hour and a half commute and a side hustle I love? I love this blog, this business, this space, but I don't want to burn myself out, so I am going to aim to publish three times a week, Monday, Wednesday and Friday, and I'm going to give myself grace when I am not able to finish.
I want to let go of the excuse "my dad just died." I've said it a few times, but people have assigned that excuse to me. If I'm stressed, sad, scatter brained, a bitch, you name it, someone has said to me, "it's okay, you're blank, you just lost your dad." That gave me permission to be any one of those things, but it's not okay. I am still sad everyday about my dad's passing, but it will not be an excuse for anything anymore.
Above all, I want to let go of negativity. I can feel it in my body. All my negative energy, has manifested as knots in my back, tightness in my neck, and I believe it's a factor in my psoriasis. I'm ready to let it go and be happier.
So here I am, about to turn 34, singing "Frozen" in my head has I type this. While it's not my favorite Disney song, it's the one I'm currently vibing with the most, "Let it go, you can't hold me back anymore!"